UGGG 12-5-09

Motivation lost, huge tests impending. Two weeks to serenity.

11-30-09

Yesterday I went to church.

Today is my brother's birthday.

Today I finally did well on my biochemistry quiz.

Tonight I might actually accomplish my list of things to get done.

Tomorrow is the one year anniversary that I was accepted to dental school.

11-27-09

Thanksgiving 2009 was fun. No pictures to share-unless cousin Marcie sends me some of hers. The Oklahoma relatives came to Thanksgiving this year. We haven't seen them in a few years. Time flies!

Memories from this Thanksgiving:

Going around the table telling what we were thankful for turned into laughing so hard we were all crying.

Bob reverting to 11 years old for the day and competing with nephew Ethan in video games and shooting guns.

Great hors d'oeuvres, dinner, dessert.

Spending time with family

At the end of the day, Bob and I took in a movie......Men Who Stare At Goats. Odd. Then one more evening of lovely sleep! I think the best part of my Thanksgiving break has been sleeping in everyday! OH THE LUXURY!!!!! In just a few days I will be back in the grind and stress of school again. Although, I only have about 3 weeks left-then I will be on Christmas break!

November 25 2009

I'm on Thanksgiving break. I had grand plans to study from the moment I left school Friday on thru the whole break so I would be not only caught up but....AHEAD. It is now Wednesday and I'm planning to start now. BUT, all is not lost. I have been active. I have been catching up on important sleep. I've lost so much sleep this semester I can never repay the debt but I have managed in 5 days to lessen the dark circles under my eyes and my eyelids are a little less purple and puffy. Plus, I've moved into my new office. That means I returned everything we put from my office into the guest room (while Bob was building my office) back into the office and thus we have a guest room and an office again. It is as if two whole rooms have been added on! Its much like finding $10 in your winter coat from last year (you always had it but didn't appreciate it)-which I also did this week.

I have also seen many movies-one of my favorite past times. I rented several and Bob and I saw Precious the other night. Plus we purchased a few we plan to watch before the week is up. Last night we went to a wake for a friend's mother. We ventured to downtown Overland Park for the wake. Afterwards we had an impromptu dinner with friends. We ended up at a new-ish restaurant called TASTE. It was in a building that once housed a bar a group of my old friends used to frequent. The bones of the building were still very much the same (I had heard there was a fire there at one point) but the decor/music was more modern/moody. This restaurant specializes in the shared small plates type of dinner I do enjoy so much. The food was really good and it was nice to spend some relaxing time with good friends we don't always get to see socially.

I hope I can accomplish a lot during the rest of my break. I know the tail end of this semester will fly by so I need to focus and really use what ever time I have available to get caught up. Happy Thanksgiving Everyone!

11-11-09

I really should be studying. But, I don't have a test until Monday (after having had a test each day this week so far) so it is really hard to motivate myself to read a chapter of biochem. I have to tell myself that getting a good night's sleep for a change will be just as valuable.

Today was my dental morphology lab practicum over the maxillary canine. I stayed up late last night prepping the tooth for this test. We're allowed a minimal amount of prep work and the practical itself is 2 hours. It is a pressure cooker. Everyone is feverishly creating a tooth out of wax that will be scrutinized by a team of graders. They look at every minor detail of the tooth so it is important to have clean lines, correct angles, correct contact points between teeth, correct spacing between teeth. There is a lot that goes into it. Of course, while working in the wax everytime a change is made to one area of the tooth it affects another area of the tooth-whether that is symmetry or just realizing after that one change is made something else becomes glaringly out of place. A lot of people complained of migraines after the test-it really is stressful.

11-7-09

So, another week, and I'm still in D-school. I keep asking myself why. I pulled 3 all nighters this week. I call it an all nighter even if once every few hours I take in a 15-30 min nap because there is no way I'm getting any REM sleep -thats strictly to let my eyes moisten a bit. So, I had to rearrange my Friday and catch up some work before I could leave school at 4. Then I've been slacking off ever since. I've slept (can never catch up from such deficits) and I've run an errand. Now its time to get back to work and I just can't seem to make myself read. You can tell when I write on this blog that I'm desperate to NOT study.

Bob not only worked late most of the week but he is pretty booked this weekend as well. Why is it that most couples we know have their nights and weekends to themselves to do whatever they like and we work soo hard all the time? When does all this work pay off? I know we have much to be thankful for. Bob's clients have kept him busy while others have lost their jobs. I have gotten into a program that a lot of people can not get into. In fact, I keep telling myself if I left D-school now I'd actually have to find a job in this bad economy and that might be worse actually.

I have so much I wanted to accomplish this weekend but I accomplish so much during the course of the week that it is hard to fully use my weekends for much more than recuperation. It is a horrible cycle I just can't seem to free myself from. I don't know how people do this. Some classmates have weekend jobs, some have children and they still seem to do fine and never pull all nighters. Oye!

On the positive side, Bob almost has my office fini! Now, I need to find new furniture and I can move in. Bobby just got a check up and he's got a clean bill of health but has some maintenance to do again......ah chemo brain its like being married to a different man for 6 mos. And, Bob got us I phones. I'm too busy to learn how to use it but it seems kinda cool. So there you go, there is some positive stuff going on. Back to the books.

UNCLE

So, d-school is killing me. Literally. I don't know if I will make it another semester let alone finish this one. Next week, I seek some extra help to see what, if anything, I could do differently. It appears pulling 2-3 all-nighters a week then getting 3-4 hrs of sleep a night when I can lay down just isn't going to work for me in the long haul. So, if I can't find another way to make it I may have to stop "living the dream". It is devastating to me to think I might have to let go of this goal but the reality is this just may not work out. But, I can say I tried. No one in their right mind could say I didn't try hard enough.